When My Head and Heart Disagree

When My Head and Heart Disagree

You wish that You’d be mine, and I’d be Yours

To cherish you deeply, to love You and adore --

But I find loving at times, too difficult a task

As my heart sometimes strays

From all the requests that you ask.

Sometimes they are quite simple

But other times I’m far removed

I’m not sure why I always seem to struggle

Doing the things that are approved.

And I hope you understand my reasoning,

Even thought my logic is flawed

It doesn’t make much sense to feel this way

But I’m afraid I have to say:

I’m stuck in two places at the same time,

Feeling the most pain, when I pretend that I’m fine

My life, living a full scale dichotomy

But sadly, I’m the only one that loses

When My head and heart disagree

Its not as if I don’t love You.

You know that my heart yearns for You.

But I find it difficult always beating Against

The treacherous tides of life...

Show me how to swim,

Or give me grace to sink

But please bring soothing peace to me

For the times when...

My Head and Heart Disagree.

By Greg Butz

August 8th, 2009

Now, I sure this seems like a love poem of some sorts -- and there are quite a numerous of parallel elements. But really this is a poem about trying to follow Christ -- when my head and heart disagree. I find it quite difficult constantly doing the the things that Christ desires of me. And in my heart, there are things that I know I ought to do, and things that I fall short of doing. This poem in many ways, is just a parallel between Romans chapter 8, where Paul declares, that he does the things he "ought not to do" and does not do things things that he's supposed to do.

But on a even more simple level, I know we've all faced dilemmas when our heart and head disagree about a person, thing, or even situation.